After the Oneness Meditations my experience has deepened and the changing was going on but I didn’t know exactly what is happening. I started to see the world differently, I was looking the good in everything (and I am still doing it), the good parts of the things and relationships. My feelings are: Everything is okay as it is! And I am there where I have to be!
Few weeks ago in a Deeksha event I felt a very strong Presence and the day after, my head was hurting so much, I felt something is changing inside in it. After the next program I felt endless silence, I felt acceptance and love towards all the living being, I was happy, I was watching the world in ecstasy. I couldn’t think, I couldn’t remember what happened before or what did I say. When I was connecting to Amma, I saw I am feeding starving African children and my tears was going down on my face. My connection with Bhagavan is more deep now, I hear his voice and he is answering to my questions.
Now, the huge ecstasy has disappeared but my heart is full with love and gratitude to everything and to everybody. Sometimes I get angry -for example to my children- and I upturn my voice, but as I finish what I wanted to say and I watch into their eyes, my anger slips away and only our cloudless laugh stays.
My body went through a big change because of my illness, I lost weight and I don’t crave anymore for food, usually my body tells me what it needs and when I am eating that I feel it heavenly, tasty whatever it is.
The other thing is my voice, I feel and hear the power in it, and it is like not mine, I watch and wonder what it says, behind the words the meaning becomes clear.
Sri Amma Bhagavan, I am so grateful and thankful for You, to these miracles and for the Deeksha!!!
Brigitta Szlávik (Hungary, Kiskunhalas)
The way to Awakening has started about 1 week ago when I saw an image in front of me. I was in a white dress, standing in front of a man in white, and I said I will marry God now and I swear eternal loyalty to Him. In the last week my mind has shown me its last tricks and illusions. On Friday morning when I woke up, on that day I’ve got the dasaji’s message, I opened my eyes and I felt and said ‘I am alive’. Everything has changed. My worry about time disappeared. My mind is silent and we became friends. I love it deeply and I asked it to help me further in my process. I want it to help me every time when I need advice to improve but not to disturb unnecessarily. I experience everything more intensively, the flavors, the touch of dresses. I see everyone beautiful because judging and comparing are gone from my head and I simply feel huge love for everyone. And I feel deep gratitude and grace that I can exist.
Gratefully thank for everything!
Few days ago I became very restless, I felt frustration, anger and all of this my child provoke it. I couldn’t sleep well in the night because my mind was going on all the time. In the morning it became very strong, I could go crazy. I knew I cannot push it back so I let it be and it transformed into a very hurting pain, I thought I will go crazy. I asked my Divine Amma Bhagavan to help me because it is too much for me. I felt I will die! When I was praying I saw Bhagavan and he said: ‘You died.’ Then Amma came and she was hugging me, she gave full mark to me for being this smart. On that day I was so happy, I didn’t feel anything else only happiness.
On the other day I noticed I don’t have emotions. I had nothing inside! Two days after I had a dream what was about the awakening is an awful pain. It was so painful so I woke up, I was restless but I went back to sleep. In the morning I woke up with the feeling: I don’t care will I be awakened or not, I want only one thing: to live with God, to feel him next to me, to feel his love and hug! I don’t care anything else, I cannot live without this! Only this what matters and to do my role what he gives me with complete faith and devotion!
Since that time I feel a little bit strange, it is like not me anymore. I see Anikó (my daughter), she does the same things like before but I feel this is not me anymore. I am more peaceful and I don’t worry how the things will be, I have a strong faith, God is with me and whatever happens he will take care of it. Thank you all of the help! Thanks for AmmaBhagavan for help me to get into this state, for me this is a miracle, I feel very well because my God loves me and everybody in this world!
Anikó Kristófné Nagy
After the deepening last year a lot has changed. In the beginning I experienced a lot of resistance, had a lot of questions.
Thank you for how I’m feeling now: connected with my Divine Mother Mary, with everything. Daily I meditate in the morning and take deeksha for Awakening and pray for all the people I will meet that day: that they will be filled with the golden Divine Light .
After the 64 deekshas last time, there was a lot of love, grace, peace. I regularly feel emptiness inside …no thinking…nothing…
I cannot explain.
After the skype with Krisztina, who is Awakened, my heart felt big, strong, painful, although it felt heavenly. There were emotions of happiness, love, I feel jitters in my head and sing mantra’s all day. After the meditation in the chapel of the hospital I felt a huge Presence.
Thank you my Master Sri Bhagavan.
In love and humility,
Mieke( Maria) – Meeuws
Currently, I am sure feeling stuff, I did a webinair for our Accunect Share course yesterday morning, and have felt crappy since… aching all over extremely tired. (definitely not the flu.) I also had some physical movement feelings in my mid/lower back during the healing session Kaimi did on our group, then on the way to work had the feeling/thought “why am I doing this” (the course) and felt all my goals fall away and I am now just in the present with this course and whatever will unfold, will unfold… My intuition with my BodyTalk/Accunect sessions is amazing and there is not much mind chatter – at times it takes over still though… so am getting there.
Further, during my meditations I am experiencing some amazing energy movements and blessings pouring down on me. I find my mind is not distracted much and am able to be very present to what I am doing – at work, (as a nurse) at home and many times.